I was in Alaska when my sister called and said my mom suddenly died. I was shocked. It was totally unexpected. I did not make it home for the funeral. I was able to attend online. Kind of glad I wasn't there. My mom looked horrible. Exactly a week later I got the call that dad passed. I made it home for his funeral. He looked really nice. I got to say my goodbyes to both of them. There is a huge hole in my life right now. I keep wanting to call my mom and then remember she's not around anymore. Some days it's hard to get out of bed. My wonderful husband took bereavement day when my parents passed and stayed home with me. It was so hard leaving him behind. I got physically sick. I kissed him and told him to leave. He was so worried about me. Anyway, my life right now is about surviving. Oh, and I'm having another grandson!
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“You may shoot me with your words, you may cut me with your eyes, you may kill me with your hatefulness, but still, like air, I'll rise!” ― Maya Angelou
Thank you all. I am getting to where I don't sleep so much. Now if I just had the energy to face my house. I have worked through it till I am down to laundry. Still trying to work up the energy to do that. I talked to my sister today. We both cried. I want to call my mom so badly and just talk to her, hear her voice. Still hard to believe she's gone. It make me cry because she wanted me to see the aurora borealis so much and send her pictures. I did get to see it after she passed but obviously did get to show her. Somehow this just makes me so sad.
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“You may shoot me with your words, you may cut me with your eyes, you may kill me with your hatefulness, but still, like air, I'll rise!” ― Maya Angelou