I was a people pleaser, lexxy. I was raised not to hurt anyone's feelings, and to put others first. I was also easily manipulated and had low self-esteem. Yeah, I've changed a lot a long the way. I think I found my self-esteem after I got my law degree. In the 10 years between marriage #2 and my current bliss, I became more aware of my needs and what I considered "deal breakers", and turned down a few marriage proposals, unwilling to ever "settle" again.
My first wedding was pretty large for 1983 standards. Over 200 people. A lot of business associates of my parents and people I did not know. That' just how things were done back then. My parents threw it, so they could invite whoever they wanted. It was a beautiful event, but I threw up because I did not want to marry the loser. Which would have suited my parents just fine because they could not stand him either. But I was 19 and scared and didn't know how to back out. I moved out less than a year later and got a restraining order. And an annulment. But it was a lovely party.
This does not square with my perception of you. You must have changed a lot along the way.
I don't think I could ever have been coerced into marrying someone I didn't want to marry. In fact I flat out said "no" to two proposals that I knew were not going to make me happy in the big picture.
When one is 19 many times we are atoning for our sins as a teen, such as I was. Got married knowing that is what my Mother would want. I shouldn't have.
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Sometimes you're the windshield, and sometimes you're the bug.
My first wedding was pretty large for 1983 standards. Over 200 people. A lot of business associates of my parents and people I did not know. That' just how things were done back then. My parents threw it, so they could invite whoever they wanted. It was a beautiful event, but I threw up because I did not want to marry the loser. Which would have suited my parents just fine because they could not stand him either. But I was 19 and scared and didn't know how to back out. I moved out less than a year later and got a restraining order. And an annulment. But it was a lovely party.
This does not square with my perception of you. You must have changed a lot along the way.
I don't think I could ever have been coerced into marrying someone I didn't want to marry. In fact I flat out said "no" to two proposals that I knew were not going to make me happy in the big picture.
When one is 19 many times we are atoning for our sins as a teen, such as I was. Got married knowing that is what my Mother would want. I shouldn't have.
LOL, I was still a party girl at 19. I didn't calm down until I was almost 30.
My first wedding was pretty large for 1983 standards. Over 200 people. A lot of business associates of my parents and people I did not know. That' just how things were done back then. My parents threw it, so they could invite whoever they wanted. It was a beautiful event, but I threw up because I did not want to marry the loser. Which would have suited my parents just fine because they could not stand him either. But I was 19 and scared and didn't know how to back out. I moved out less than a year later and got a restraining order. And an annulment. But it was a lovely party.
This does not square with my perception of you. You must have changed a lot along the way.
I don't think I could ever have been coerced into marrying someone I didn't want to marry. In fact I flat out said "no" to two proposals that I knew were not going to make me happy in the big picture.
When one is 19 many times we are atoning for our sins as a teen, such as I was. Got married knowing that is what my Mother would want. I shouldn't have.
LOL, I was still a party girl at 19. I didn't calm down until I was almost 30.
Yeah well, you probably were not pregnant at 19. Although I love DS and he has been the driving force in my life to better myself and a constant supporter who lifts me up, I don't regret it as much as I don't regret having a baby at 43 with an abusive azz since she is my angel. That is my life. I am not complaining.
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Sometimes you're the windshield, and sometimes you're the bug.
But. I'd do it again in heartbeat. I got 3 wonderful kids out of that marriage.
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My first wedding was pretty large for 1983 standards. Over 200 people. A lot of business associates of my parents and people I did not know. That' just how things were done back then. My parents threw it, so they could invite whoever they wanted. It was a beautiful event, but I threw up because I did not want to marry the loser. Which would have suited my parents just fine because they could not stand him either. But I was 19 and scared and didn't know how to back out. I moved out less than a year later and got a restraining order. And an annulment. But it was a lovely party.
This does not square with my perception of you. You must have changed a lot along the way.
I don't think I could ever have been coerced into marrying someone I didn't want to marry. In fact I flat out said "no" to two proposals that I knew were not going to make me happy in the big picture.
When one is 19 many times we are atoning for our sins as a teen, such as I was. Got married knowing that is what my Mother would want. I shouldn't have.
LOL, I was still a party girl at 19. I didn't calm down until I was almost 30.
Yeah well, you probably were not pregnant at 19. Although I love DS and he has been the driving force in my life to better myself and a constant supporter who lifts me up, I don't regret it as much as I don't regret having a baby at 43 with an abusive azz since she is my angel. That is my life. I am not complaining.
Thankfully no I wasn't. You seem to have done well for yourself & your kids. Be proud of all you've accomplished!
My first wedding was pretty large for 1983 standards. Over 200 people. A lot of business associates of my parents and people I did not know. That' just how things were done back then. My parents threw it, so they could invite whoever they wanted. It was a beautiful event, but I threw up because I did not want to marry the loser. Which would have suited my parents just fine because they could not stand him either. But I was 19 and scared and didn't know how to back out. I moved out less than a year later and got a restraining order. And an annulment. But it was a lovely party.
This does not square with my perception of you. You must have changed a lot along the way.
I don't think I could ever have been coerced into marrying someone I didn't want to marry. In fact I flat out said "no" to two proposals that I knew were not going to make me happy in the big picture.
When one is 19 many times we are atoning for our sins as a teen, such as I was. Got married knowing that is what my Mother would want. I shouldn't have.
Wait, we were supposed to do that?
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LawyerLady
I can explain it to you, but I can't understand it for you.
My first wedding was pretty large for 1983 standards. Over 200 people. A lot of business associates of my parents and people I did not know. That' just how things were done back then. My parents threw it, so they could invite whoever they wanted. It was a beautiful event, but I threw up because I did not want to marry the loser. Which would have suited my parents just fine because they could not stand him either. But I was 19 and scared and didn't know how to back out. I moved out less than a year later and got a restraining order. And an annulment. But it was a lovely party.
This does not square with my perception of you. You must have changed a lot along the way.
I don't think I could ever have been coerced into marrying someone I didn't want to marry. In fact I flat out said "no" to two proposals that I knew were not going to make me happy in the big picture.
When one is 19 many times we are atoning for our sins as a teen, such as I was. Got married knowing that is what my Mother would want. I shouldn't have.
Wait, we were supposed to do that?
I've heard that if you didn't it will come back to bite you when your kids are teens!
My first wedding was pretty large for 1983 standards. Over 200 people. A lot of business associates of my parents and people I did not know. That' just how things were done back then. My parents threw it, so they could invite whoever they wanted. It was a beautiful event, but I threw up because I did not want to marry the loser. Which would have suited my parents just fine because they could not stand him either. But I was 19 and scared and didn't know how to back out. I moved out less than a year later and got a restraining order. And an annulment. But it was a lovely party.
This does not square with my perception of you. You must have changed a lot along the way.
I don't think I could ever have been coerced into marrying someone I didn't want to marry. In fact I flat out said "no" to two proposals that I knew were not going to make me happy in the big picture.
When one is 19 many times we are atoning for our sins as a teen, such as I was. Got married knowing that is what my Mother would want. I shouldn't have.
Wait, we were supposed to do that?
I've heard that if you didn't it will come back to bite you when your kids are teens!
Well. That is going to suck.
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LawyerLady
I can explain it to you, but I can't understand it for you.